a beautiful day

i was planning to spend some time this evening contemplating why i am not lsoing weight as quickly as i could be...

i changed my mind (at least for the time being).

i think that one of the missing pieces was/is beauty. instead of thinking of working out or eating right as what i need to do but think of these activities as acts of beauty. enjoy what is here.

for instance, cleaning the house instead of ticking of the things i have done i want to see these acts as cultivating a home or body that is beautiful.

or working out and enjoying the endorphins afterward, the power during and the mental fortitude beforehand. instead of heaving and dreading. today sam and i worked out- working out with sam is a beautiful thing to me.

today i planted an urban garden- we have pots of herbs and a red wagon with tomato plants. when we buy more soil, we will have a diet-coke crate (with 2-liter bottles as planters) full of sweet green peppers. i think these things are beautiful.