Philadelphia

29 is turning out to be a grown-up age for me.
today we went down to philadelphia for bethy's 29th birthday.
we spent the first hour of our trip in jersey city on the turnpike- ah city-life

ran into some sort of parade


the day was filled with interesting, light conversation and wandering about.
it's funny how we run in to people we never thought we would see again.

Times Square

16 21 10

spring evening with deborah

almost hit deborah in the crosswalk this evening-

turned out to be a spontaneous-friday-laughter- relaxing- release

she brought wine and the garden was glamorous

woman

still thinking about beauty-
how to be beautiful as a woman

on mother's day a woman said to me that all women are mothers because we all nurture and create

i thought this was hopeful and helpful

for myself- i have taken quite a bit of pride in the growth of my garden that i have nurtured
and i do long to create beautiful things-

i long to create and have started to create...
a culture of food that has roots in time and place
family culture tied to seasons of the year
and every once in a while long to create a child

i want to be finished struggling with myself-
struggling to be something i am not
to perform to others

i want to understand who i am
weaknesses and strengths
who i am in relationship to God- Sam and community

maybe this acceptance of woman- acceptance of roots- acceptance of time and place is fundamental in understanding me as i relate to who God made me

saturday morning